I remember when our home, our love
Was like the night is
Like the ocean
Dark, it was vast, it was beautiful

It held us
Like
We held each other

I was the bed that you left
Unmade
You came home to
Eased your aching weight into me
One sweet, one slow
Square inch
Per second

You held onto the final
The best, most beautiful
Last bit
Held it against so many pleading beats
Of my needful heart

I held
So hard
Onto my breath, your beauty
And then
That one last portion clasped to me
And you
And I
Had everything
Each other

One night
Inside the palm
Of the cupped hand we’d made our universe
You
Began to slip away
The easing ceased to be against me
Reversed, undid
And you un-gave me
Beauty, time, and all your
Perfect
Pressure

You made the bed
And the pale light of your skin
Started fading

I had held you for
So long that
I
Took twice as long to
Let you go
As it took the door of our us to release me

And the night let go of his position
And the day
Swelled
Steady, full and empty, high and hollow
Over
An ocean

Water left so still without the moon
To hold it to its tides

But now I know that
If you had been the earth
If you had been
Fire, air or water
You would have been so big
You would have
Swallowed my body to
Be inside your body
But you
Were made a boy
Made of the moon

So you could stay steady behind me
As I walk the world
That is so many miles from you
You are there
Just like always
I do not feel the need to look

So you could float
Behind me to
Illuminate the nape
Of my unbroken neck

You were nothing
I
Would die without
Nothing
That could kill me

And so I live without you
And
I am okay and I am happy
I let the sun hold both my hands
So he can lead me out into the day.